Meh...my mouth

I really used to struggle with my mouth and with the things that fly out and with the words that I say and things that I do. And lately that part of my flesh has been rearing it's ugly and really awful head and I hate it.

I said things today in a conversation with someone I really love out of frustration and annoyance and stress and well, just plain sin.

I say things and immediately regret them and I speak with a tone that is so easily taken for frustration. I have allowed my heart and my mind to be burdened with stresses of life and out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks...thus causing a hardcore appointment with humility and Jesus...

The Word says the tongue can build up or tear down, it can encourage or discourage and today I did all the worst of those. So as I spend time in the Word and with the Lord, this is what I've got.

I'm sorry Lord. Forgive me. Replace stress, sadness, frustration, hurt, etc. With your overflowing grace, peace and joy. I love You and help me to tireless love Your children and the people You've given in my life. That I would honor, love, and respect them and be more of the women You 'be intended me to be.


So that's all from me tonight...a little bit of honesty.

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It's been a while...

Well gosh...I was reminded today from multiple sources that it had been a EXTREMELY long time since I'd posted.

Tonight I was Amazingly humbled by the goodness and grace of the Lord. I am worship leader and I wholeheartedly believe that He has has appointed and called me to grow in that aspect of my ministry, as well as, using the talents the Lord has blessed me with.

The great thing is that the Lord totally doesn't need me, which is was reminded of tonight as I epically failed during tonights set. :)

I'm thankful that the Lord doesn't require perfection or anything really even close. He just requires a willing and pliable heart.

I have failed and sinned and am so unworthy of the things that the Lord has asked of me yet He is so patient and kind. I am dirty and wretched but I so want to do what is right. Even though I daily fail and sin in major ways I so want to be used by the Lord.

I'm reading in Samuel right now and I just really want to be like Samuel who responds with "here I am." I'm sorry that I failed You yet again but here I am. Use me and help me to be more like You.

So that's just what I had on my mind. I assure you It won't be another year and some change til my next post.


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